The Lateral Lattice of Hearts
She confided to me, that as a child, she had been taught to look up to God in prayer and pray for his love for her. She suggested to me that this type of hierarchical model for identifying oneself isolates one from ones native humanity and from one-another. "It isolates. It doesn't heal anything."
Moments later she described to me what it means to heal. She described it by relating her own experience in helping to heal a friend. Her friend had been in hospital undergoing extensive surgery. She told me that twenty minutes after the procedure had been scheduled to start, she had felt a sickening feeling. She felt a crisis was happening.
She told me that she had focused herself mentally onto that person's need who would be operated on. She said she became sensitive to his needs. She said that she had sensed an critical need for help. She said that simultaneously with that feeling, images came to mind of the dimensions of Truth about our humanity. She told me that she saw images of a wide array of human hearts, all connected horizontally with one-another, arrayed side by side in a lateral relationship. She said that she saw a vast network of hearts bound to each other in this lateral lattice of our human world, all sharing and supporting one-another physically, with each heart contributing some of its strength in support of the strength of her friend's heart during this moment of need, during his operation. She said she sensed a need for some extra strength. She said that she saw images of a universal flow of support meeting that need in a process that reflected the lateral flow of Love as the light of our universal humanity. She said that she clung to this image that appeared in the mind until the mental atmosphere became quiet again and a sense of peace returned. She also said that this awareness of a crisis soon reasserted itself and brought the same response to her mind.
She told me that this process repeated itself two times, with quiet periods in between. At all three different points, she had become aware of a need for help, and her response to the need was the same and emerged with equal clarity with images of what she had felt to be universal Truth based on the science of it that she had explored in the years before and had frequently felt the efficacy of in her own experiences.
She explained to me that this image of a lateral lattice of interconnected human hearts was not a dream image, conjured up in the intensity of the moment. She said it reflected a profound perception of a reality that she has long understood and learned to be in Love with as the reality of her being and that of the whole of the universe.
She said that after two-and-a-half-hours in which these cycles were repeated as cycles of supporting realizations founded on an underlying discovered Truth, the recognized need for that process suddenly stopped.
"The mind became very quiet," said helen. "Even though the surgery wasn't supposed to be finished for another hour, the mental atmosphere became totally still. A great peace came over me," she said. "Evidently, the point of the crisis had passed."
She told me that her friend looked wonderful when she came to visit him in the hospital late that afternoon. She saw a glowing face, a brightly radiant expression. She said that what she saw surprised her for a moment, because it was so radically inconsistent with someone coming out of surgery just hours earlier.
"That is what being in Love means," she said to me. "Being in Love is really a scientific process. It unfolds with a flow of healing."
"A scientific process?" I said astounded.
"Of course it is," Helen replied. She explained that the higher-level healing involves nothing more than an intensified form of the same scientific process that we are engaged in all the time.
She explained that normally, when we explore complex issues in our mind, or even lesser issues, our thinking processes unfold in a linguistic dialog with ourselves. She said, "we speak to ourselves in our mind. We construct ideas based on what we know, and we explain them to ourselves, pro or con, in a linguistic dialog that is focused on what we recognize as Truth. But in the intensity of a crisis where immediate healing is required, the linguistic process is too slow and too shallow," said Helen. "In critical situations, where healing is required urgently, we reach deeper into consciousness for everything that we acknowledge and understand as Truth. We bring all of that together at once. What results from that is a visual construct. We see the functioning of Truth in the construct. The linguistic dialog still happens in the background, but the whole realization of everything that one knows to be true, becomes ever more focused on exploring and verifying in a visual construct what comprises the absolute that we recognize, acknowledge, and understand."
She explained that normally a spiritual healer sends her love in the form of one's personal light and personal energy to help someone in need. Helen said to me, "I was able to go beyond that. I knew that our common humanity unites us all into a single comprehensive bond. Thus, I was able to draw on the light that constantly flows from our humanity and from the universe, which we are all a part of, and that recognized light and its energy where focused where the were urgently needed."
Helen began to laugh. "In a way, I was able to send my friend the light of the world, all focused to support my friend's critical need in a moment of crisis. That's what the lateral expression of Love is, Peter. That is how it functions. Healing is a part of the process, and I myself, found myself more in the role of a spectator looking on than an actor in it. It was amazing, Peter. And it was a beautiful process. That's what healing is. It's a beautiful process."
Helen added that sometimes in the process of healing, the profound aspects of Truth that we know quickly inspire us to take some direct action in support of one-another. This may be seen as a kind of 'visual' process in which we become more directly involved. She said that this process takes us miles further than the simple process that we had committed ourselves to go in the case of our combined effort in helping her pianist friend in his time of great need.
Helen explained to me while we were getting dressed, that she had sensed a similar need for help when she observed me in the pub being lectured by the professor who knows nothing about Love. "I am not in the habit of running after men in the middle of the night," she added and laughed. "I just sensed that some form of healing needed to be accomplished. I also realized that I could play a role in bringing it about. That's what I acted on."
"Yes, there was a need for healing, of my distorted sense of Love," I said in full agreement. I couldn't say more. The right words didn't come to mind. A hug seemed not enough, but it had to do. But then again, perhaps a hug was enough. Or was it?
"There is something more that I must do for you now," Helen said smiling. "I must complete the healing that you require, because learning to be in Love involves an active process of healing."
She stopped getting dressed and sat down on the bed.
"You mean healing me?" I asked. "Am I still in need of healing? I thought I was healed of my problem. I've got no more love pains. I am totally satisfied."
"No, you are not," Helen countered me gently. "You still don't know what Love is."
I shook my head and smiled.
"Please sit down and let me prove it to you," she said gently. "Let me prove it to you with a paradox."
"With a paradox?" I repeated and sat down, somewhat astonished. "OK, what's the paradox?"
"You met Erica and fell into Love her," she said. "I believe you really loved her and still do. That's obvious by the way you talked to me about her. Would you agree that what you feel for her is a deep seated loving?"
"Ok! Now after you met me, I believe you fell into Love with me likewise. It's plain to see that you did. Am I right?"
"Of course you are right," I said with a smile and leaned over to her. "We are in Love with each other. But what's the paradox?"
"We have a profound paradox to resolve," she answered and smiled. "We have two examples of loving here. In one instance a deep loving unfolded on a platform that is totally devoid of sexual intimacy. And in the other instance your loving unfolded on a platform that was extensively interwoven with sexual intimacies. It is plain to see that sex plays a role in your being in Love with me. You wish to have it included. This means that you have embraced two apparently opposite platforms of Love. That's the paradox, because both of them are totally valid."
"So what are saying with this?" I interjected.
"I am suggesting that the key for solving the paradox is the universal nature of Love. There are worlds upon worlds you can surround with Love, and bring Love into them. And the processes of doing that cover a wide landscape, but they are all valid. They are all valid according to the evidence that you just confirmed, even when they are opposites in form to each other in a respect that is important to us. They are all valid nevertheless, even as opposites. How is this possible, you may ask? That's another paradox, right? So where does the Truth lie that unites opposites? What aspect of Truth unites those opposites, Peter?"
I shrugged my shoulders. "I can't answer that, Helen. I am not as far advanced as a scientist than you are? Maybe there exists no clear answer. Maybe sometime in the far future some saint will be able to figure that one out."
"No Peter, you are wrong on all counts," she said gently and continued to smile, "because the problem has already been solved 5000 years ago in the cradles of civilization and in all the bright periods after that."
She told me that her 'friend' Nicholas of Cusa, one of the founders of the Golden Renaissance, had understood how to unite opposites. She said, "Cusa had applied science to the challenge of uniting religions, which most people regards as a hopeless task. Nicholas Cusa had developed a rather unique approach. He had composed a story that he had frequently used to illustrate the solution. The story became widely circulated. Let me tell you the story," said Helen.
Once upon a time the sages of the seventeen religions of the world came together to resolve a problem that they couldn't resolve individually, which was their division and hated of one another, which had gone on for a hundred years. So, being assembled together they asked God, the divine wisdom, for guidance.
"Why is it that we are so divided and fight against each other in your name," they said. "Why is it that we denounce and even kill one-another in your service?"
"Oh, you should know the answer yourself," the Divine Word replied. "You are all wise men. You should be able to understand that there is only one Truth. What else could there be, but one Truth?"
They replied, "Yes, we can understand that. But why do we fight each other over that one Truth?"
Helen turned to me. "How should the divine word have answered that question?"
"Maybe the answer should have been that they were all mistaken," I suggested.
"You are getting close," said Helen.
She continued, "I would have asked all the sages of the religions of the world to travel to the nearest seashore and have each one pick up a grain of sand. I would then have said to them that each one of them, in their religion, had taken a single grain of sand and magnified it into something very big, and had made a doctrine of it, and gave it a name."
"So tell me Peter, what would you suggest I should tell the sages they must do to resolve their problem?" she asked me.
Ah! Something suddenly clicked in my mind. "Of course, the answer must be that they must drop their single grain of sand and embrace the entire seashore, the beach, the ocean, and all the gains of sand. The answer must be that they embrace a higher idea, a higher concept. This way they don't have to fight each other anymore. And neither will they have to go back to their people and tell them that what they had fought each other for in the past had been invalid. The good they found before is still valid. They should be able to see that. Only now their sense of good exists in the much larger context and as a greater and higher idea that is reflected in all good, that unites all diversities. Would you have said something like that to them, Helen?" I asked.
Helen nodded. She told me that in Nicholas' story the divine word had answered the sages that they had made one fundamental error. They had mistaken the words of the prophets for the Divine Word of Truth. They had created many prophets and many traditions and given them names. The Divine Word explained to them that Truth is obviously something far greater. It is something that they must open themselves up to. They must allow themselves to be "snatched up to it," as it were, to the higher standard of one universal Truth that can have no name or combines all names.
"That's how we must look at Love," said Helen. "If we do that, Love pains become an impossibility. All the questions about sex, marriage, traditions, doctrines, etc., are then no longer determining factors when the focus begins to shift towards embracing the entire seashore as a higher idea, instead of embracing just a few gains of its sand, or just one single grain."
Helen referred to my being in Love with Erica, and my being now in Love with her too, as but grains of sand. She said that she herself was constantly aiming to look up from the sand and embrace the entire seashore which opens up to us a vastly rich world - a world of Truth and Love - that we may never be able to fully embrace, but can gleam a lot more of than we do. She told me that she had been lonely for most of her life until this new Cusa-inspired perception dawned. She said that out of this perception the principle of the lateral lattice began to develop long before it became an impetus in healing. She said that it might have been in carrying forward what Cusa had started that she discovered the reality that we are all invariably linked to one-another by the threads of our humanity. She told me that this developing realization changed her life. She said that from this moment on her life became 'explosive' with new horizons coming into view, and new aspects of Love, and new people to share them and explore Love with. She said it was amazing to see how rich life had become.
"The image of the lateral lattice that developed has no room for vertical domination, or for a reaching down to lift somebody up. Nor is there any room in it for division and isolation, such as religious division, political division, or sexual division. The very concept of sexual division becomes totally invalid on this platform. It can't exist in any shape or form. There is no such thing as sexual division or even age division in the realm where Love is universal Principle. No expression of Principle supports the notion of division and isolation in Love. There can be no division in Love, because Love, which includes all, cannot loose its object. It touches us and encircles the universe. We exists, because Love exists. The lateral lattice is a lattice of Love in which we are bound by universal Love with the threads of our humanity."
"When I had asked you to tell me what you desired most in your life," she said a while later, "you couldn't answer me. I was tempted to ask you what you felt is your greatest need as a human being. It would have been unfair to ask that then. The foundation hadn't been built for what the answer must be. I think our greatest need as human beings is neither to be loved, nor to be loving, but to be in Love itself and to embrace one-another in it. This means that we begin to be in Love with ourselves as the most precious gem in the universe in this higher, absolute sense. This process takes us way beyond what Cusa saw. In ancient days a man named John had once contemplated what the world would be like at the end of all evil, meaning a world in which all human needs and hopes and wishes are fulfilled. One of the images that he saw was that of a woman clothed with the sun, the moon under her feet, and on her head a crown of twelve stars."
"We are not there yet," I interjected.
"But what precisely did John see?" said Helen. "How do we see ourselves in this sense? What do we see ourselves presently 'clothed' with? Do we see us clothed with the Sun?"
I hesitated answering.
"Surely, you can answer that," said helen and smiled.
"To be honest, I feel often quite naked," I said. "What I surround myself with doesn't amount to much in global terms. It's all so inconsequential. Even my job is. I have become a pawn in a game that someone else is playing. Sometimes I am ashamed of myself to be living that way. I certainly never saw myself as clothed with the sun. I mostly saw in myself what the ancient writer saw who created the Adam and Eve mythology. Of course I use a different fig leaf. I wear a pinstriped suite. But in real terms I feel often naked. I think the writer of that ancient mythology had observed society correctly. He understood that total nakedness is a terrible position to be in. So we try to hide it. I only disagree with the ending of the Adam mythology. I would have written the ending differently. I don't think God would have said to Adam, you disgust me, get out of my sight, get out of my garden, and get out of my paradise. That wouldn't have been necessary. Adam had already kicked himself out at this point. The turning point might have been when he picked up the fig leaf. Yes, I suppose, my greatest need is to find a way to reverse that and get to what Adam couldn't see in himself."
"You are getting warm," said Helen. "But tell me, is your pin-striped fig leave all that you surround yourself with? What about all those mortal measurements, the kind of measurements that kill your sense of Soul, that murder your humanity? Don't we all have those mile long lists of complaints about our society, our world, and ourselves that made Adam ashamed to be human being? We wrap these around ourselves constantly. They become a barrier. They isolate us. By being clothed in these 'garments' we effectively place ourselves outside the universal lateral lattice. We isolate ourselves from the reality of our being. We find ourselves alone. Do you want to know how to get back in to the garden of the lateral lattice that humanity has largely expelled itself from? Then the answer is simple, Peter. Shed all the other garments and clothe yourself with the sun. Begin to be in Love and in the realm of universal Principle. Both are exceedingly rich. That means loving yourself. Be in Love with your humanity! Discover all its brightness! If you can't be in Love with yourself, how can you be in Love anyone else? But if you truly envelop yourself in Love you automatically include the whole of humanity, because there is no being 'outside' possible. There exists only one humanity in the world and we're all a part of it; and one universal Soul that comes to light in every one of us. To be in Love with yourself, therefore, is the most natural thing, Peter. It expresses universal Love. Any other form of loving, which is not rooted in our universal Love and Soul, has no validity. It rings as a badly written play as you have pointed out yourself, a play that doesn't work. The universal lateral lattice of love that defines the reality of our being is the most correctly constructed image that I know. In it we are all clothed with the sun of being in Love with what we are as human beings. We should find ourselves in that lattice and not try to live outside of it."
"That is our greatest need then?" I said with a note of astonishment in my voice. "You are right, but I would have never recognized that before, even if you had told me the answer right there and then."
"Don't feel too badly. You are not alone in this," she said. "The whole of humanity is far from recognizing its most urgent need, much less has it taken steps in fulfilling this need. The man John, in ancient times, seems to have felt that it is inevitable that some day we begin to take these footsteps. If we do this, we will have dominion, but not over one-another as the imperial masters now seek, but over the Earth and all that surrounds it, and over the stars in our crown so that they will indeed be stars of our rejoicing, and we will have power over the nations in terms of healing and uplifting power, power to enrich one-another that unfolds in Love. Ultimately we will recognize that empire has no power at all, because it is not grounded in Love where all power is rooted."
"Ah, I see. In this case, we here in this room where the sunrise has already begun," I said to her, "are enough to change the world."
She paused. She looked startled. Then she began to laugh. "I had asked you what you desired most in your life," she said. "You couldn't answer me. You were honest, because the core of the answer, the lateral lattice, was still unknown to you. You were searching for its substance and its reality, but you couldn't define it. In a lateral relationship we are all at one with another. You were trying to find yourself in that lateral lattice, because you could feel its essence, though you couldn't put your finger on it. I was able to heal by this power that you just vaguely sensed. To become healer, therefore, is your greatest need."
"I think I can agree on this, but wouldn't have yesterday," I said quietly. "I think the answer may be much bigger than we can imagine. When the first atomic bomb was dropped the world was changed for all times to come. The knowledge to build these bombs won't go away, so that we must find a way to live with that knowledge securely so that we won't blow ourselves up. In the same sense, when you recognized the principle of the lateral lattice that defines the reality of our being, the world was changed in the direction in which we must go. That knowledge of that direction, too, will remain forever, Helen. The door to the Eternal World Order of Love has been opened. Maybe you have opened it for us. The sunrise has begun. Or maybe just the dawn has begun, but don't you see, the full sunshine is now inevitable?"
"Inevitable, its is," said Helen slowly, pausing between the phrases. "Begun, it has not. Universal Love isn't that easy to define. I created a model to define it, but the model needs to be translated into life. Love connects us with one-another intimately by the strands of our humanity. It seems that we need to see this element of our being now coming to light in our life. That's not easy. Being truly in Love with ourselves is hard. It won't be easy to shed our fig leaf and whatever else we wrap ourselves up with, and to envelop ourselves instead with the sun of Love, and to let its sunshine envelop everyone else too. The model is simple, but to translate it into life is not. Nor can one take sex out of it, which is deeply rooted in our humanity. But have we begun to take those first steps? The days and years ahead will answer that question. By all that I have seen, being in Love is a challenging and scary thing in the real world as the process extends universally. Universal Love is a new country for all of us, as you said yesterday. Sure it is one that we need to become familiar with and have the science at hand to do it with so that the healing will follow of whatever needs to be healed. I even think that this is what we all wish for the most in Life. At least I do. But are we willing to take the footsteps? Just look at sex in terms of universal Love and the social scene becomes immensely complex. I agree, the door is open, but have we taken any decisive footsteps yet past the threshold?"
From: The Lodging for the Rose: Episode 1: Discovering Love